Saturday, September 29, 2007
BAPTISMok.. today's e day wen i got baptize.. wow.. e feeling is really.. wonderful.. yeah.. but e scary part is wen i said my testi.. was really shivering.. lol. hope no one sees it.. ok.. almost everyone saw.. was super scared la.. ken teached me e breathing method oso dint work lor.. haha.. but in e end still managed to say everything within 2 mins.. lol.. e part wen goin in n out of e water was really.. nice.. lol.. took pics.. received presents.. some gifts were really unexpected.. yup.. felt vry blessed.. anyway a happy birhtday to those who got baptized too.. =Dmaybe i shldnt hate u.. u arent dat bad afterall..glad i dint came today.. if not u wld hav spoiled e whole day.
8:53 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
alright.. long time since i'd post.. okie.. so far i onli could recall wad happened since last sat..
[sat]
went early to study.. den met qz.. den went for serv.. ser came.. but left halfway.. den watched this movie called.. ok i forgot.. den went studied while e rest was eatin.. home-ed wif mum, bro n dad..
[sun]
serv.. headed home wif mum, bro n dad again..
[today]
went to sch.. kinda tired but dint sleep.. had maths, sci n eng test.. dat damn mdm seah... wanted me to go remedial.. k.. it's for my own good i noe.. but somehow i juz cant motivate myself to study.. i kept tellin myself i cant do it.. but thanks to bernice, i still managed to finish those papers.. had lunch wif xueyi, corey n her fren.. dint really talked much bout her.. lol.. wanted to but.. yeah.. den headed to xy's hse.. played o2jam.. oh ya.. one e way she saw her eyecutie n got mad.. and ya.. maybe she's kinda fated wif him.. lol.. back to o2jam.. she got real high while playin it.. ended up not doin her tuition work.. den headed home..
oh man...... how to make myself study.. i'm really so.... so lookin down on myself.. nvm.. 2 more weeks.. =D
somehow, it sucks to see u. hate that feeling. leave me alone. stop haunting me like a ghost.
8:28 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
hmmm.. ok i shall post bout ytd n today
[ytd]
went to church.. dint went for lts.. den i ent to toilet left my phone.. luckily it was e second floor toilet n so i managed to get it back.. after service i left it in 1st floor toilet.. argh....... after e 1st time i still left it there.. now it's gone.. argh...... nvm.. maybe it's god's will.. wantin me to let go of e past n start anew as dat phone has alot of memories in it.. went for baptism class den headed home.. my mum brought me to get a new one.. soooooooooo nice of her.. somehow i appreciate wad she'd done but i juz simply dunno how to express it to her.. if u guys see tis please msg me yr no. cos i lost everything..
[today]
overslept.. =X juz dun feel lik goin sch.. oh man.. i got my results.. i failed everything except chi,eng n hist.. i really gotta buck up.. no more slackin.. oh man,...i'm so damn discourage.. i really need motivation.. i cant carry on bein so lazy.. CHARIS.. STUDY.. FOR YR SAKE.. PARENT'S SAKE.. GOD'S SAKE.. FUTURE.. lol.. really.. i gotta study..
helppppppppppppppp.......................
3:54 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
alright... hmmmm.. went to thomson early to hav tuition.. wa.. can see dat esther teach me until can die.. cos i vry easily distracted and cant seem to get e things in my brain.. argh.. after service i noe who oreadi.. unexpected.. lol.. k.. den went to meet ppl.. den went to stuy.. oh God.. i seriously dunno wad's wrong wif me man.. i cant seem to get myself to be serious n discipline myself.. kept gettin distracted and dun even wanna use my brain to think at all.. argh.. help me man.. i really gotta study.. nvm. anyway thank God dat someone is finally willing to disciple me.. noein dat i'm so troublesome.. lol.. den headed home wif my mum..
thanks.. =)argh.. someone please help me.. motivate me.. =(
10:41 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
today was still so so.. ent to sch as usual.. e weather was.. damn.. it was hot man.. n i hate e place i'm sittin at.. right beside cher's table, in e front and no fan!! argh.. how irritating can it be man.. n i cant simply tahan mdm seah! hear her voice dun wan study le.. i was tryin to talk nicely to her oreadi.. my stomach hurt lik mad n she dint even allow me to e toilet.. damn her man.. nvm.. after sch supposed to go for sci remedial but dint.. wen to buy bubble tea wif xueyi n jovin.. halfway studyin ar mac jovin realised her wallet lost.. so we went to sch to find.. i wasnt suppose to go bak lar.. cos cher see me i die.. as i failed my sci so gotta go remedial but i dint.. den qiyou pass her her wallet w/o money..lol.. and.. ya... 30 bucks plus gone.. damn dat dylan.. always stealing money.. den report to dm.. den police.. one super funny ting was dat cher was goin home.. me,sy,wl,hy,hr,cherie n xy was sitting at e chess table.. den ms gan came out goin home.. dat damn cherie n xueyi lar!! go say bye to her.. den xueyi ask her how's jovin.. den i was lik tryin to hide la.. den she walked towards us.. den they all were lik using their papers n books to cover me.. i was lik leanin my face on e table.. oh man.. hope she dint saw me lar.. but it's quite obvious dat she did.. hopefully tmr she doesnt make me stay back.. lol.. dat's all for e day.. walked xueyi home den went home.. oh ya dat dumb bus turn wrong way.. ok nvm.. anyway jovin, dun worry man.. e police sure find who's e culprit one.. chill yeah.. =)
cant wait to know!!!! =D
8:18 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
hmmm... dumb me.. ytd ate smthg wrong and had food poisoning.. wa.. damn xin ku.. kept vomiting.. can feel lik smthg pressing my intestines forcin all e foods to come out.. n damn dat doc man.. kept press press my stomach.. make me feel lik puking more.. nvm.. all i noe was my mum was there all along for me.. she left work n came straight from work to my sch.. haha.. was kinda touched lar.. but dunno how to express it to her.. e doc gave me mc for today.. =D went to eat mac.. dumb rite me.. den now stomach hurts again.. so here i am blogging..
hmmm.. here's one thing dat i wanna share.. alot of u may not noe wad i'm talkin bout lar.. tis period wen my parents quarrel i was super down.. i was wondering.. where e hell was God?? den smthg juz made me wanna read e book 'daily bread'.. although e date was oreadi over, i went to read e last page.. and could u believe it? e title was where was God.. i was lik.. wow.. ok here's wad it says.. ok it's super long.. so whoever who's not interested dun hav to read it lar..
Was God sadistically absent? That's what Robert McClory, professor emeritus of journalism at Northwestern blah blah asked.. we may try to exonerate the Almighty for permitting disasters dat rip apart vulnerable communities. But is God absent in such situations? No, McClory insists. TAlking about the Katrina tragedy, he said God was invisibly present "with the suffering and the dying. He was in the individuals, communities, churches, and schools that organised aid for the victims and took evacuees into their cities and homes. He was with the hundreds of thousands who showed compassion by prayer and financial assistance."
So it is in our own lives when a heartbreaking tragedy occurs, such as the death of someone we love. We have no complete satisfactory answer to life's painful problems. we do know, however. that the Lord is present with us, for He said He would never leave us (Heb. 13:5). Jesus's name "Immanuel" literally means "God is with us" (matt. 1:23). Even though suffering baffles in our minds, we can trust God to be near and to work out His purposes.
God's unseen presence comforts me,
i knoe He's always near;
And when life's storms besiege our soul,
He says, "My child. I'm here."
The storms of our life
prove the strength of our Anchor.
Surely He has borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows.
Isaiah 53:4
2:45 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
sch reopens.. argh.. dunno y felt so tired today but cant sleep.. after sch planned to go home n study but dint at all.. omg.. i need motivation man.. i cant carry on lik tis.. i really gotta study b4 i retain.. argh.. helpppppp.. all day facin e com n tv.. really muz stop all tis.. self control man charis self control.. and i cant seem to concentrate in class oso.. nvm.. i'll see how as time goes.. if i really retain.. den it's fate den..
i really don't know what's wrong with me. sorry. doubts, negative thots n unbelieve are just simply overwhelming me. save me.
10:02 PM
Sunday, September 9, 2007
ok ok i hate tis..
The blogging rules:1) Each blogger must post these rules first.2) Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themself.3) Blogger that are tagged need to write on their own blog eight things and post the rules there.4)Dont forget to leave them a comment to them telling them they're tagged and to go to read your blog.
eight facts/habits about me:
1) short
2) fat
3) dumb
4) hate cats
5) sometimes do talk alot (depends on my mood)
6) like music
7) wanna be a clown
8) likes to say 'oh my god' (gotta change tis bad habit of mine)
eight people to do this:
1) weiling
2) huirong
3) germaine
4) qiying
5) aerenia
6) hong hoon
7) berlyn
8) jovin
ok i'm done.. argh.. i hate doin tis kinda things.. lol.. today went to church.. den lunch.. den went for baptism class.. home-ed.. boring day.. omg.. i cant believe one week sch holiday juz ended lik this.. argh... i need holidays..
HOLIDAYS~~~~
9:28 PM
Thursday, September 6, 2007
GOOD DAYalright.. dunno y i'm feeling so.. high? happy? ya.. haha.. woke up.. use com.. den esther came to tutor me.. hahaha. can see dat she teach me until she pek chek.. cos i wasn't really payin attention.. den she talk is lik go in left ear out of right ear.. but still understand some lar.. haha.. den ard 3 plus went to meet bethes to walk walk.. den i juz realised dat she's funny n cute lar.. dumb n blur too.. ok juz had fun.. headed home at ard 7 plus.. XUEYI!!! I WAN LEARN THE SONG.. SOOOOOOO NICE.. =DDDi tink it's time dat i really muz MUG super hard oreadi.. i'm lik sooooooooooo lazy to tink n understand stuff lar.. i'm not stupid actually.. is onli dat i'm lazy to tink n understand e questions n wad cher is sayin.. lol.. ok.. seriously time to buck up.. As, here i come.
maybe it's wrong of me to hate u. sorry. u're my past
10:16 PM
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
went for hist lesson.. so damn borin.. after e break cant seem to concentrate at all although xueyi kept askin me to unblock.. wadeva dat mdm fauzia said juz went in n out or my ears.. den we went to mac.. den headed to some void deck playground.. some pri sch kids asked us to play ice n water wif them. really brought back some childhood memories while playin.. lol.. but we still lose lar.. they're guys btw.. after dat went to mac slacked awhile den went to xueyi's hse.. played some stupid game dat made us really damn pek chek lar.. irritating game.. haha. but had lots of fun too.. dat game really made us laugh alot.. den xueyi taught me how to play piano pieces n we hear piano pieces played by jay.. he's really talented man.. how i wish i can play lik him.. lol.. btw billard spoiled our mood.. he peeed on xueyi's bed den make us all so angry.. lol.. but he oso cannot control one lar.. in e end xueyi locked her up but jovin took it out in e end.. lol... she kept takin e bone from billard den make her so angry.. haha.. kkz.. after all e fun den we went home..
the words u said really pierced my heart so badly.
9:37 PM
Monday, September 3, 2007
alrights.... stayed at home e whole day.. wanted to go out but no $$.. dun ask me out next time ppl.. cos.. wanna noe y ask me yrself.. shall not say it here.. had sore throat n irritating blocked nose.. dunno y oso.. maybe too heaty ba.. hmmm.. had fun playin wif my younger bro too.. although at times he may be irritating but he may be cute n fun.. he's my entertainer too wen i'm bored.. haha.. n wad a dumb ass he is too.. ok wad happened was we were eatin crackers.. den got ice milo oso.. so he tot e ice milo is e crackers n dips his whole hand inside.. how dumb can he be rite?? lol.. k k k.. but he's kinda cute though.. haha.. kkz.. dat's my day..
seeing u lik tis really hurts n pains me alot.. i really don't know how to be a strength to u.how much i hate u. u suck. i hate u. so much. i don't need u.
10:16 PM
Sunday, September 2, 2007
alright................ today woke up.. went to met qy to study.. n we felt 'convicted' so end up goin for e rally.. dint really listen.. went in for 10 secs den went out to find shuyi.. slacked outside.. cos dint wanna go in.. wanted to talk to someone so badly.. but.. nvm.. den after e whole ting went home.. so here i am now..
i needed someone to talk to soooo badly.. i really need serious advice.. i really dunno who to believe.. who to trust.. i simply juz lost trust in everyone.. whoeva u are.. since it took such a long time for u to consider, might as well dun at all.. i'm a hopeless person.. simply hopeless.. yeah.. i noe u may tink dat way dat's y u took so long to consider.. whoeva u are.. giv up.. i'm juz sooo damn fcking lost.. so lost.
12:02 AM
